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"sometimes, someone says something really small and it just fits into this empty place in your heart." (angela)
"hatred can be like food. it gives you this energy. you can like, live off it." (angela)
"it's such a lie that you should do what's in your heart. if we all did what was in our hearts, the world would come
to a screeching halt." (angela)
"it's like you think you're safe or something 'cause you can walk away, any time, because you don't like, need her.
you don't need anyone. but the thing you didn't realize is, you're wrong." (jordan catalano)
ANGELA: why are you like this?
JORDAN: like what?
ANGELA: like, how you are.
"i loved jordan catalano so much, and talked about him so much, and thought about him so much, it was like he lived
inside me. like he had taken posession of my soul, or something. and then one day...i got over him." (angela)
"it's always tempting to lose yourself with someone, who's maybe lost themselves." (patti)
"i did an undefendable thing. i created my own prison, and i have to exist in it. maybe i had a...wish...or whatever,
to punish you. an unconcious wish. you've heard of them, right?" (jordan)
"if you like, analyze why certain people end up with certain other people it'll make you want to kill yourself."
(brian)
"so i tried to be inivsible. which is surpisingly possible. you just sit in the back and keep quiet and let the boys
shout out all the answers, which they will, even if they're wrong. boys are less afraid of being wrong." (angela)
"i'm sorry. i was gonna ask you if i could borrow your bike, but forget it. i'm always doing this, i'm always asking
you for something that's totally unfair to ask you for. it's like a sick habit. and just because you're polite about it doesn't
make it right. it's not. it's wrong. totally selfish of me and i'll never do it again, okay? i'll have it back by tonight."
(angela)
"people always say you should be yourself, like yourself is this definite thing, like a toaster or something. like
you know what it is, even. but every so often, i'll have like, a moment, where just being myself, and in my life, right where
i am, is like, enough." (angela)
"i love parties--throwing them, going to them, recovering from them." (amber)
"sometimes it seems like we're all living in some kind of prison. and the crime is how much we hate ourselves. it's
good to get really dressed up once in a while. and admit the truth: that when you look really closely? people are so strange
and complicated that they're actually...beautiful. possible even me." (angela)
RICKIE: if you were to do it, okay, what would you want the other person to say, like right before?
RAYANNE: this won't take long.
RICKIE: no, seriously.
RAYANNE: do i know you?
RICKIE: no, like, for real. like, romantic.
ANGELA: you're so beauitful, it hurts to look at you.
RAYANNE: it hurts to look at you?
RICKIE: how'd you think of that?
RAYANNE: how would it hurt?
"there are so many different ways to be connected to people. there are people you feel an unspoken connection to,
even though there's not even a word for it. tehre's the people who you've known forever who know you in this way that other
people can't because they've seen you change. they've let you change." (angela)
"have you ever just like completely given up on someone and then something happens and you go, oh my god, there is
so much more to this person than i ever dreamed." (angela)
"you don't know, you don't understand, not for one second. you think you understand, but you don't. you just analyze
everything until it barely even exists." (angela, to brian)
"there's something about sunday night that really makes you want to kill yourself." (angela)
"grownups like to tell you where they were when President Kennedy was shot, which they all know to the exact second.
which makes me almost jealous, like i should have seen soemthing important enough to know where I was when it happened. but
i don't yet. and in fact it was a better time then, and people knew what they were supposed to do and how to make the world
better. now nobody knows anything. we know who's popular, or that social studies is boring, or that brian always has stomach
trouble." (angela)
"when you're not sure you trust a person anymore, say a person you really trusted, say your father, you start wishing
they'd do something like, really wrong, just so you can be right about them." (angela)
"it had become the focus of evreything. it was all i could feel...all i could think about. it blotted out the rest
of my face, the rest of my life. like the zit had become...the truth about me." (angela)
"lately, i can't even look at my mother without wanting to stab her. repeatedly." (angela)
"if only there was a button somewhere i could push. to force me to stop talking." (angela)
"love is when you look into someone's eyes, and suddenly you go all the way inside to their soul...and you both know,
instantly." (angela)
"the worst feeling is suddenly realizing that you don't measure up. and that, in the past, when you thought you did,
you were a fool." (angela)
"sometimes i think if my mother wasn't so good at pretending to be happy she might be better at actually being happy."
(angela)
"my parents keep asking how school was. it's like saying 'how was that drive by shooting?' you don't care how it
was, you're lucky to get out alive." (angela)
RAYANNE: you want to have sex with him.
ANGELA: who?
RAYANNE: who? jordan. catalano. come on, i'm not gonna tell anyone,just admit it.
ANGELA: i just like how he's always leaning. against stuff. he leans great. well, either sex or a conversation. preferably
both.
"i'm in love. his name is jordan catalano. he was let back, twice. once i almost touched his shoulder in the middle
of a pop quiz. he's always closing his eyes like it hurts to look at things." (angela)
"it seems like you like, agree to be a certain personality or something. for no reason. just to make things easier
for everyone. but when you think about it, i mean, how do you know it's not you? and, i mean, this whole thing with yearbook--it's
like, everybody's in this big hurry to make this book, to supposedly remember what happened. because if you made a book of
what really happened, it'd be a really upsetting book." (angela)
"what i like, dread, is when people who know you in completely different ways end up in the same area. you have to
develop this like, combination you on the spot." (angela)
"you know how sometimes the last sentence you said like, echoes in your brain? and it just keeps sounding stupider?
and you have to say something else just to make it stop?" (angela)
"what's amazing is when you can feel your life going somewhere, like your life just figured out how to get good like,
that second." (angela)
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